Two years ago, on April 19, 2017, I received an autologous transplant at UCSF to treat my multiple myeloma. This program was very successful and I have been in remission since that time. If you have gone through the trials and tribulations of a transplant, I salute you. It is an overwhelming and traumatic process under the best of circumstances. There were times a few months after the transplant when I felt somewhat dissociated from the whole experience. Did I really go through that debilitating process? It seemed both unreal and also hyper-real, always at or just below the level of consciousness, lingering and sometimes even festering.
On March 7 and 8, 2019, I was fortunate enough to have a ketamine treatment on 2 consecutive days at BioReset Medical™ under the direction of Dr. Matthew Cook. I had no expectations and no idea what might happen. On the first day, I spontaneously relived the specific details of the transplant process, including inserting the dreaded Quinton Catheter, harvesting, receiving an infusion of the even more dreaded chemo, putting them back into my blood, watching my blood levels drop to 0 or below .1, getting an infection, and being put in isolation. For each of these steps, I briefly re-lived the event and then let it go with a very full sense of relief. At the end of the treatment, I felt much lighter and happier. On the second day, I moved past the letting go phase and was able to embrace all of the people and events in my life. At that point, I felt especially more loving and connected in my relationships.
Why do I write about these events? Very simply, I would recommend the ketamine procedure to you if you have been through cancer treatment, a bone marrow transplant, or other serious and traumatic medical procedures. With hindsight, I wish it had been a standard component of the transplant protocol to help all patients deal with the emotional aspects of this type of treatment. I hope it will be helpful for you, as it was for me, to let go of the emotional fall-out of these treatments so that you can live in the present without the black cloud of your past medical history hanging over you and holding you back from your current life. I did not experience any side effects of the ketamine procedure. On the contrary, I thought it was the most enjoyable, bliss filled experience of my entire life. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
J.W.C. Missoula, Montana April 19,2019